Thank God for Brian!

Since learning of the failure of our last IUI, I have fallen into a little depression. But as always my husband, Brian, has been my rock. He is always full of hope and has such a "GO Get EM!" attitude. He believes we can conquer every obstacle. Brian definitely keeps me going when I want to give in to my fears. I often worry that due to my family history of hysterectomies in early 40's , that my time is running out. My mom has horrible periods starting in her mid 30's. I am going to be 32 in June and I am freaking out. I don't care about the number, just that I worry that my "fertile" years are numbered. Not like my fertile years have been very fruitful. I feel such a terrible urgency that I can not shake. Every time I mention this to Brian, he tells me that I am young. He says if we lived back east, we wouldn't even be thinking about babies, we would be more interested in getting our careers on track. He says that most people in a urban setting don't start thinking about starting a family until their mid 30's. I wonder if this is true, or if he is just trying to calm my fears. He also is constantly telling me that I will be a mother and we will have a child, either through conception or adoption. He is at every single IUI and has never complained once about the cost or having to go give a "sample." When ever I start to worry about the cost of the treatments and appointments, Brian tells me we will be fine and we will figure it out. Brian is the most amazing husband and I thank God for him everyday!