14 Days after my IUI

Okay so today it has been 14 days since the IUI. I had terrible cramps last week and I had spotting on Friday morning. Of course I completely fell apart, but had to compose myself for work. Brian is still in Livingston so it has been rough to go through all the emotions with him so far away, but he is so supportive and keeps telling me to stay positive. My period was suppose to start Sunday and I am still waiting. I still have a little bit of spotting, but for the most part I feel great. I am just trying to be patient. I don't want to test until maybe Wednesday if my period doesn't start, I might even try to control myself until the weekend, when Brian will be home. I actually also feel amazingly relaxed now about the whole situation, if my period starts, my period starts and we will try again. I guess I have just decided that we have a great plan in place and we are doing everything we can, God is in charge and I have to leave it in his hands. Yep, I said it, I am Letting Go, & Letting God, which is not something I do, I am a control freak. But I guess it is time that I start trusting in God's Plan for me!

IUI down, now the waiting game!

So we went for it and had an IUI on August 18th, which was our 8th Wedding Anniversary. I was super nervous and anxious. It only took about 10 minutes, but was super painful and of course uncomfortable. I was cramping something fierce and continued to cramp through the week. Brian left for Livingston on Thursday for work and when he left he kissed my belly, he is so optimistic & adorable. I am extremely anxious and super emotional. I have a strange side-achey feeling and have had twinges of pain, I would call them cramps. Also not to get to personal but, my nipples are super sensitive. I will be able to test this Sunday the 30th of August. I am trying not to think about it, but it is hard. Everyone has been so supportive and have been praying like crazy. I just hope that it works and I am able to deliver good news to everyone, no pun intended. So I guess we wait and see.

Spotting?

So it is Sunday and it is time to start testing for ovulation. So I did the test & it is negative, except I have spotting? Although this may seem normal for some people, it is not normal for me. Last month I had spotting around the same time, but that was the first time that had ever happened. I am so confused & frustrated. I talked to my OB/GYN's nurse last month and she said it was normal. I hate being compared to other women. It is not normal for me and I don't know what it means. Does it mean I am ovulating, going to ovulate or does it mean there is something else going on. Maybe I am just letting my nerves and fears get the best of me, but I just don't know what it all means and I don't know how to get my doctor & his nurse to understand that I am concerned & frustrated. URGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

Nerves

So I am super nervous about the IUI. I did some research on the procedure and WOW! I am hoping that I won't have a ton of cramping afterwords, cause I am a huge baby. Brian talked to Marty, the sperm guy, at Northwestern Andrology and he gave Brian the rundown of what he needs to do. Now it is just the waiting game for my ovulation test to come back positive for LH surge.
In my research I learned that my chances are basically the same as they are when there is no medical intervention, but for those that have fertility issues it may increase the odds. So we shall see. I just hope that this is the answer to our prayers and that our dream to become parents finally comes true.