Fertility Treatments no more

After feeling pretty crappy/crampy last week, my period made an early appearance on Monday. I knew it was going to start and had a pretty rough weekend. I cried A LOT and screamed A LOT! But through it all, Brian and I decided to discontinue fertility treatments and concentrate on adoption. We, mostly me, feel like we are just banging our heads against a brick wall. I have done everything the doctors have told me. I have attempted every crazy suggestion I have been given and we are still struggling. I just need to concentrate on our other option. We have actually had the paper work for adoption since August 2008, so this isn't a new concept. I finally just said, we have to finish this and get it in. The Adoption process could take a while and I need to feel like I am doing something, rather than just "relaxing" & "letting it happen". I am not someone that can sit and wait. We finished the application to Catholic Social Services and will hopefully send it out today. It was a huge decision and for the most part I feel relieved. But I am scared of what lies ahead. We have a lot to do in the process. We have to wait to see if we have been accepted. Then once we have been accepted, we have a workshop to do and home study plus lots of reading. Brian is Mr. Optimistic, and I love it, mostly because I need his optimism to get me through the tough times, but also because he is really adorable. He believes with all his heart that we WILL be parents no matter what! I pray that a young woman out there chooses adoption over abortion and she picks us to raise her child. So begins our Adoption Journey.....