IUI?

So I have been trying really hard not to think about babies and getting pregnant hoping that I would relax enough for it just to happen. Therefore I have not been blogging.

So at the end of May, Brian had another semen analysis done at Dr. Garnaas's urging. The received the results and referred him to a Urologist, due to White Blood Cells in his semen, a sign of infection or abnormalities. The Urologist met with Brian and asked him why he was there, Brian replied that he was told to see a urologist and made the appointment. The Urologist told Brian that he could not see anything wrong and said everything was fine. We both felt relieved and went about our lives. About 2 weeks ago I decided to call Dr. Garnaas and find out what the next step or option was. Gina, Dr. Garnaas's nurse told me they had not seen a report on Brian's appointment with the Urologist. I got in contact with the Urologist office and got the ball roll, no pun intended. Dr. Garnaas then checked out the appointment notes and contacted a colleague of his and discussed the situation. Gina then contacted me today and said that Dr. Garnaas believes that Inter-Uterine Insemination is our best chance for conception. Brian would give a semen sample that would then be "washed," which means they would separate the actual sperm from the semen, thus removing the White Blood Cells.

Brian & I have talked about this option, but now that it may be our only option, I feel ........, well I don't know how I feel.

I guess the reality of the situation is really starting to get to me. I never thought that getting pregnant would be so difficult, I am from a very fertile family. Plus you never think of conceiving your child with Doctors in the room and not in the usual way. I want a child so there is no question that we will proceed, but part of me feels sad and hopeless, yet again. Hopefully I will feel better about the situation when we have time to really let it sink in.